I can't believe I'm over halfway through my forty days!
And I'm halfway to my weight loss goal :)
Last week was really hard, and now I know why: that time of the month. No wonder I had the cravings and the crabby feelings and the seeming lack of weight loss. Funny thing how water retention works. A couple of days after I was supposed to weigh in, I checked my weight again, and I had indeed lost some weight. I just had to get past that whole "bloating" period!
I did learn a few things though... Lean Cuisine frozen entrees are WAY better than Smart Ones or Healthy Choice. They just taste better and make your taste buds a bit more satisfied. This is a big help when all you're eating is one little entree, a side salad and a piece of fruit.
Weight loss to date: 7 pounds!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
Not so fun
I've decided this is getting REALLY old.
I'm just a few days shy of completing three weeks, and already yesterday I had a meltdown. I'm still trying to figure out if motherhood stresses me out, which causes me to eat, or if my NOT eating is stressing me out and making motherhood nuts. I'm really cranky these days, which leaves me little patience. And that's not a good place, you know?
It doesn't matter. Last night I definitely threw the diet out the window and snacked and nibbled after dinner without any regard for the mealplan.
Which leads me to tonight. At this point, I have eaten ALL the food I am allotted for today, and all I want to do is eat. Eat something really yummy. To top it off, tomorrow is going to be one heck of a day. In the morning I've got a scrapbooking event to go to, so there's going to be all sorts of snacks, and in the afternoon we're having people over for our annual football and chili event. Translation: a full day surrounded by friends and food. And you know that's a lethal combination!
As of today, I've lost a total of 5.5 pounds. My husband congratulated me and said I was doing a good job and that I need to keep going. I know this. But I hate it. I hate it! I hate it! The sad thing is, I'm pretty sure this weight will come back, especially after the holidays. But I'm praying that won't be the case. I'm praying that I can adopt some good eating habits and exercising habits to at least maintain a healthy weight.
This week I'm studying Chapter 4 in Matthew which deals with the temptation of Christ. He fasted for forty days and forty nights! I'm just trying to eat healthily and sensibly for forty days and can't even do that!
I'm just a few days shy of completing three weeks, and already yesterday I had a meltdown. I'm still trying to figure out if motherhood stresses me out, which causes me to eat, or if my NOT eating is stressing me out and making motherhood nuts. I'm really cranky these days, which leaves me little patience. And that's not a good place, you know?
It doesn't matter. Last night I definitely threw the diet out the window and snacked and nibbled after dinner without any regard for the mealplan.
Which leads me to tonight. At this point, I have eaten ALL the food I am allotted for today, and all I want to do is eat. Eat something really yummy. To top it off, tomorrow is going to be one heck of a day. In the morning I've got a scrapbooking event to go to, so there's going to be all sorts of snacks, and in the afternoon we're having people over for our annual football and chili event. Translation: a full day surrounded by friends and food. And you know that's a lethal combination!
As of today, I've lost a total of 5.5 pounds. My husband congratulated me and said I was doing a good job and that I need to keep going. I know this. But I hate it. I hate it! I hate it! The sad thing is, I'm pretty sure this weight will come back, especially after the holidays. But I'm praying that won't be the case. I'm praying that I can adopt some good eating habits and exercising habits to at least maintain a healthy weight.
This week I'm studying Chapter 4 in Matthew which deals with the temptation of Christ. He fasted for forty days and forty nights! I'm just trying to eat healthily and sensibly for forty days and can't even do that!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Day...?
I'm hungry.
Today is an interesting one...for the past week and a half now I haven't had too much trouble with the cravings. But today, for some reason, I'm having a harder time.
I had a delicious breakfast: hashbrowns with green pepper and onion and turkey sausage. Even during my outing this morning when I was surrounded by sweet, baked treats I didn't budge. I reached for my allotted portion of fruit (carried over from breakfast) and some carrot sticks. Good job, Vicky! Lunch was yummy, too. I think it was a enchilada entree from Smart Ones and a side salad. I was supposed to have some fruit, but I decided to wait to eat the fruit later. But instead I had a cucumber salad.
As I was eating that vinegar-y mess, I just got really frustrated. I really want to eat some macaroni and cheese! Or, I just really want a thick slice of bread with a smear of butter. I could probably eat any one of those things, but I don't want to measure the calories and fit it in somewhere, plus it's loaded with fat, and of course I'm trying to control all that right now. So, I reached for a graham cracker. I hoped that would satisfy my "bread/carb" craving without tipping the scales too much.
So, I'm sitting here 30 minutes later still feeling a bit hungry. It's probably because I don't have too much to do right now. My son woke up early from his nap, I don't feel like taking him out anywhere since I'm a bit tired, and dinner needs to be on the stove in a little bit over an hour. Which is the other hurdle: two dinners. One for me, one for the rest of the family. I suppose I can make enough of my meal to feed all three of us, but I have a feeling they're not going to like eggplant parmesan . Especially with fat free parmesan and plain, low-sodium tomato sauce! Not to mention eggplant...
Today is an interesting one...for the past week and a half now I haven't had too much trouble with the cravings. But today, for some reason, I'm having a harder time.
I had a delicious breakfast: hashbrowns with green pepper and onion and turkey sausage. Even during my outing this morning when I was surrounded by sweet, baked treats I didn't budge. I reached for my allotted portion of fruit (carried over from breakfast) and some carrot sticks. Good job, Vicky! Lunch was yummy, too. I think it was a enchilada entree from Smart Ones and a side salad. I was supposed to have some fruit, but I decided to wait to eat the fruit later. But instead I had a cucumber salad.
As I was eating that vinegar-y mess, I just got really frustrated. I really want to eat some macaroni and cheese! Or, I just really want a thick slice of bread with a smear of butter. I could probably eat any one of those things, but I don't want to measure the calories and fit it in somewhere, plus it's loaded with fat, and of course I'm trying to control all that right now. So, I reached for a graham cracker. I hoped that would satisfy my "bread/carb" craving without tipping the scales too much.
So, I'm sitting here 30 minutes later still feeling a bit hungry. It's probably because I don't have too much to do right now. My son woke up early from his nap, I don't feel like taking him out anywhere since I'm a bit tired, and dinner needs to be on the stove in a little bit over an hour. Which is the other hurdle: two dinners. One for me, one for the rest of the family. I suppose I can make enough of my meal to feed all three of us, but I have a feeling they're not going to like eggplant parmesan . Especially with fat free parmesan and plain, low-sodium tomato sauce! Not to mention eggplant...
Monday, October 8, 2007
Still plugging away---yay!
I weighed in this morning, and despite my time off from the "meal plan" I lost 1.5 pounds over the course of last week. Yippee! Tracking my progress, I've lost a bit over 5 pounds since the beginning of September.
Today was good. I am glad to be back to my fruits and salads. Tonight's dinner was especially good. Asian Beef with rice. It was basically beef stirfry with green peppers, snow peas and green onion served with white rice, side salad and a kiwi. I was full by the time I ate my entree and salad, so I passed on the fruit. Not only am I trying to stick to the meal plan, but I'm also stopping when I'm full. I need to learn to stop eating when I am satisfied! Some diets encourage you to finish the whole portion of food alloted for a meal, and I've done those before. But I feel like it didn't teach me to listen to my body. Therefore, even if I'm entitled to more food at any given meal, I'm stopping anyway. Hopefully, I will be able to learn to hear my body's signals more clearly the more I do this.
Today was good. I am glad to be back to my fruits and salads. Tonight's dinner was especially good. Asian Beef with rice. It was basically beef stirfry with green peppers, snow peas and green onion served with white rice, side salad and a kiwi. I was full by the time I ate my entree and salad, so I passed on the fruit. Not only am I trying to stick to the meal plan, but I'm also stopping when I'm full. I need to learn to stop eating when I am satisfied! Some diets encourage you to finish the whole portion of food alloted for a meal, and I've done those before. But I feel like it didn't teach me to listen to my body. Therefore, even if I'm entitled to more food at any given meal, I'm stopping anyway. Hopefully, I will be able to learn to hear my body's signals more clearly the more I do this.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
off the bandwagon already???
Not really, but kinda close. This past weekend I worked at the Hearts at Home conference in Minnesota. I was determined to eat as best as I could. Our carpool van picked me up at about 3:45 Thursday afternoon loaded with cookies, krispy kreme donuts and bags of candy.
Yes. Cookies, donuts and candy.
I had brought a healthy snack with me for the long car ride, and knew we were going to stop for dinner. And I was able to order a fairly tame dinner....one hamburger and two side salads. But the rest of the weekend was definitely a challenge.
I am proud to say that though I couldn't follow my meal plan, I was able to watch my portions and avoid the obvious sweet treats. I didn't go back for seconds (unless it was salad), stopped eating when I was full, and on the last day after a hard day's work, I had a small slice of apple pie after dinner to not completely deprive myself. I have to admit, though, that I did have a hershey kiss here and there.
Glad to be home and hopefully back on track for this week....
Yes. Cookies, donuts and candy.
I had brought a healthy snack with me for the long car ride, and knew we were going to stop for dinner. And I was able to order a fairly tame dinner....one hamburger and two side salads. But the rest of the weekend was definitely a challenge.
I am proud to say that though I couldn't follow my meal plan, I was able to watch my portions and avoid the obvious sweet treats. I didn't go back for seconds (unless it was salad), stopped eating when I was full, and on the last day after a hard day's work, I had a small slice of apple pie after dinner to not completely deprive myself. I have to admit, though, that I did have a hershey kiss here and there.
Glad to be home and hopefully back on track for this week....
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
big temptation!
Last night we had our Bible Study group come over and one of the members had brought some yummy chex mix. It was kinda like puppy chow, but better. There was chex, candy corn, raisins, m&m's, pretzels and maybe one other thing, all smothered and coated in melted white chocolate. YUM-O! The entire two hours of our study I watched others munch out of this bowl of delight with envy and longing.
Puppy Chow is probaby one of my most favorite treats. Needless to say, at the end of the night I indulged at took a few pieces of the chex mix, and a pretzel or two. I had to forgo the candy corn and m&m's altogether, otherwise it would have been the point of no return!
I am happy to report, however, that since I've changed what I eat I am actually less hungry. It's kinda nice...
Puppy Chow is probaby one of my most favorite treats. Needless to say, at the end of the night I indulged at took a few pieces of the chex mix, and a pretzel or two. I had to forgo the candy corn and m&m's altogether, otherwise it would have been the point of no return!
I am happy to report, however, that since I've changed what I eat I am actually less hungry. It's kinda nice...
Monday, October 1, 2007
one week
Alright, one week under my belt! Today I weighed in and have lost a little bit over two pounds in the last week. But compared to my last doctor's visit in August, I've lost about four pounds. Yay for progress!
I've printed out my meal plan for the week and the food substitution guide. There's this category of "free foods" that I didn't notice. It's not all that yummy, but I can have unlimited raw veggies, and a few servings of sugar free gelatin everyday if I really get hungry. I find that I have felt pretty comfortable all along, though (except for those first few days when all I wanted was something rich and sweet, or savory and fatty!)
This morning's workout was pretty good. I find that music is probably my biggest motivator right now. I usually plug my earphones into the tv on the treadmill or elliptical at the gym and watch the Today Show, but lately I've enjoyed listening to the XM radio stations that they also have. A nice, steady, house or techno beat can egg me on to running just a little bit longer. Then I have to play these mind games with myself, "C'mon, Vicky! One more minute!" "Keep going!". Then I do the "C'mon, Vicky, just thirty more seconds!" Before you know it, you've burned hundreds of calories...
You just have to do what it takes to get you to do what you have to do to, you know? Distraction, imagery, maybe just keeping really busy so you don't think about your sweet tooth. "Yes, I can see myself 10 pounds lighter!" Actually, no, I can't. I have no idea what I'd look like...
I've printed out my meal plan for the week and the food substitution guide. There's this category of "free foods" that I didn't notice. It's not all that yummy, but I can have unlimited raw veggies, and a few servings of sugar free gelatin everyday if I really get hungry. I find that I have felt pretty comfortable all along, though (except for those first few days when all I wanted was something rich and sweet, or savory and fatty!)
This morning's workout was pretty good. I find that music is probably my biggest motivator right now. I usually plug my earphones into the tv on the treadmill or elliptical at the gym and watch the Today Show, but lately I've enjoyed listening to the XM radio stations that they also have. A nice, steady, house or techno beat can egg me on to running just a little bit longer. Then I have to play these mind games with myself, "C'mon, Vicky! One more minute!" "Keep going!". Then I do the "C'mon, Vicky, just thirty more seconds!" Before you know it, you've burned hundreds of calories...
You just have to do what it takes to get you to do what you have to do to, you know? Distraction, imagery, maybe just keeping really busy so you don't think about your sweet tooth. "Yes, I can see myself 10 pounds lighter!" Actually, no, I can't. I have no idea what I'd look like...
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